I did ask in an email related to some other issues last night if he wanted me to handle it differently in the moment when she pushes back on spending time with him and he didn't answer, so I consider that done until I hear differently.
Things have shifted between us to be friendlier, warmer, and easier, but he's also working super hard. There's a project that's going to suck up a lot of time and energy happening, and it's exactly the sort of project that would freak me out till it's over, so the 180 will be trusting him that it won't end up having a bad impact on our future.
As part of he project he asked me to swap weekends with him. I said I would, but that there were things scheduled for my weekend that I really wanted to do with the kids. He said he would keep them but we all would do them together. He also asked if I wanted to have dinner at his place with the kids.
It happens that the weekend he wants to swap for is our 17th wedding anniversary.
I worry about letting him slide back in like that, and then I wonder if I'm not just making things difficult for myself. If he's just testing the waters, or if this is a new dynamic that he wants to try out. Then I remember how firmly he said no, he doesn't want a divorce. I'm CONFUSED.
I had all kinds of poetic introspection about fall being my favorite season, etc., but this is enough for now. I have a life to go live too.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
