Maybell, I have a twisty mind and perhaps I worded that poorly. Thinking about when things were good was a nice change from my current thought cycle. labug did get me to stop focusing on the EA itself, if only for a moment. She continues to encourage me not to act from wrath nor from my place of pain.
It was definitely more productive than some of my other recent thoughts.
Me: 43 XW: 43 T15 M14 D21, SS15, S11, D8 BD: 8/6 EA / possible PA discovered 9/29 D final 10/20