Oh pearl I bought 2 pairs,of shoes as well! I wasn't allowed while with h! Only second hand and I had to buy cheap as possible men's clothes undies the like. Having nice stuff is cool.
The child is improving, but his father does let him run riot and does not set any boundary at all. Telling son if he continues to theaten he will live in town with his dad, seems to have worked.
Although his concerns revolve around me hooking up with strange men, and kicking him to the curb. So he's feeling emtionally unstable and unsettled.
I have been talking to him on a casual level at times when he's not upset, validating etc. and so his outburst have been less. His concern was his riffle was gone but now it's safe and he's seen it he's far more relaxed. Seems I've lost a tad more weight, pants I had that have been loose for months, are now able to pull on without unzipping.
The make up is now a work staple for the last three -four months even keeping on keeping on when I get up at 4 am. I want to look good. Or better than I did.
The whole visit to h place left me with a bizarre feeling like i Had been to the MAD hatters, the whole things felt staged or mmm I can't find the words for the feeling. I'm not sure I could even begin to get any vibe off his actions, or words except that they are most definitely not matching. H says done get out of my life, but I'm holding onto the artificial vagina for a sterile stallion which he was supposed to castrate and hasn't.
When I said why do you need it, the horse has no testicles anymore? Horse has foals on the ground and got mares preggers was his reply, but I'm not sure how he needs the av now as the horse has no visible testicles. H said its joint property I'm keeping it till asked to hand it over.
That exchange was just so weird it was not logical nor about the av on his side. Hence when he really started to give me a hard time, I just left, as I wanted no part in the conversation which was him going round till he got an argeement. The next mediation is 10 days. So I feel it can wait and I wasn't falling into the trap about him getting a bite out of me for an argument. ^^^^ all that I cannot do anything about and it now doesn't bother me like it used to. Which shows I've grown some.
Heading to a work do tomorrow night so I'm wearing new heels and dusting off the wrangler jeans that make me walk funny. Funny how loosing 10-20kg or 33-44 pounds makes you swagger! The girls at work now ask how many coffes I've had at lunch, I say 2 coffees makes life funny but add chocolate to the mix and it will get wild. Lol
Life is fun, I cannot remember fun times like this. For such a long time things were awful its nice to be stress free, that was definitely reinforced by yesterday's visit.
The thing my mind kept fleeing back to today is how being separated is actually calm happy and nice. It's funny how things change.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
