Not sleeping, having ED, his skin condition has flared up worse than ever, sinuses, body aches, and today was eye floaters.... And he's all alone with it, as he wanted.
I don't have anger toward him. But I'm not holding my breath anymore. It's like I have this vision that he has to go on his journey alone, far away....until I can't see him in the distance, in order to become whole. Then when he circles back toward me, he will be ready.
Just a mental image that helps me realize how long this takes. Now I see it....no matter how many touch and go we have right now, he's still on the outbound train.
