Hello everyone, So, today I got word that the office is back up and running. It came too late for me to go in the office (i work 1.5 hours away) but at least I know it will be back up in the AM tomorrow. I am going to keep actively looking for a new position and at the same time try and get some money from this job. I can't live like this any more, not knowing what will happen next. I hate it. I will say I can see how since my W over the years never wanted to know what was going on with the finances, she could have felt out of "control" when it came to money. Since I was in sales, I never had a "steady" income. When I got paid it was a large sum but sometimes it was a long wait between pay checks and we would need to be careful. I'm not saying it was all my fault as my W could have taken a more active role in our finances but I also could have kept her more aware myself. I also think after her depression, I tried to "shield" her from the hard times and that was a mistake on my part. See, I am learning more about my part in all this mess!
Right now I must think only about how I can make my life better and right now that means income. It will give me a chance to stop thinking about my M or D (although I do need to see my lawyer Monday and it probably won't be good news from the sound of his voice when we spoke) but I can't let that trump doing what I need to make my life work.
So, I'll be looking for more places to send my resume today and try and stop worrying. So far God has provided when I needed it most as long as I did my part. Time to do my part in spades!
