Also, when we were talking about SD12, he mentioned that "if she moves in with me at some point in the future, then it'll be my choice who she hangs out with", meaning he'd let me see her without an issue.
While that's wonderful and I'm glad, it struck an arrow to my heart about how decided he seems on us parting. Just...settled. Decided. Done. No hope for me or our R.
I know I'm not supposed to let that effect me and I'm supposed to detach to the point I don't give a damn what happens, but it made my tummy squirm and back came all the unpleasant "icky" feelings associated with not wanting this.
BF:40 M:33 SD: 12 T: 8, never married, no kids together BD: 8/4, "I'm just done", "...too tired and burnt to try". PA confirmed 8/5 "It happened, but it's been over for almost a year".
