New here, my fairytale gone wrong

[MrBond]

"I am released from the bonds of this M if I want to be and can remarry one day if I wish and still be ok with God."

Well if it's okay with God, then move on. Don't let faith be your excuse to do something or not to do something. I took it the other way. When my W had her A, I decided to stand on the Word and follow my initial vows ... "for better or worse". But that's all up to the individual.

Don't rely just on faith. God offers you the opportunity and the choice to do certain things. What you do with those is up to you.