I think I am getting closer to my journey to saving my m. at this point I see no point in trying to save something that my h has no regard for. I have been repeatedly lied to, had my feelings disregarded, and my opinions seem to not matter in the slightest. any way I behave, whether light and breezy or hurt or angry seems to get the same results and I just can't do it anymore. I am at the point wwhere I no longer believe anything my h says and I'm beginning to doubt that he ever truly loved me. I feel sad for our beautiful boys, I feel sad for the m I had and I feel sad for the loss of the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, he seems to no longer exist. it's family night tonight, something that he implemented for the sake of the kids so will pull out the pma, get through the two hours he's here and know that I don't have to see him again until Saturday to drop the boys off. I wish I wasn't at this point but I can't see any way at all to come back from this.
