I am memorized by your thread. Your growth, external processing, strength, self blaming, amazing kids... incredible beauty...
We're so much alike!
You're so right. uR has some incredible insights and I've gained a lot while reading through your exchanges. It's funny how something you've heard or read 1,000 times suddenly helps you take a deeper breath, wipe away long streaming tears, swallow the lump in your throat and sticks with you.
When she said to you that this process is necessary. That there's no way around it, just through. I've said that to others. I've said it to myself. I firmly believe it. I know it to be true but for some reason the way she said it or the timing, who knows... I needed to hear that - AGAIN.
Today has been rough, yes, but for no good reason. It's not like I had some evil exchange with H and now I'm hating life. I just can't seem to manage these emotions that come up seemingly out of the blue. They never used to do that. It makes me feel out of control but also I feel like I controlled my emotions for so long that now they're saying "STOP, pay attention to me!!!" so they stream down my face all the time now.
It hurts, man.
Anyway, I don't want take over your brand new thread.
Thanks for stopping by mine. I'll visit this new thread more often. We really are in similar situations.
I wonder if an IC would be something I should look into. >sigh<
