That is an option, Maybell. Or, maybe I just need to have some continued patience. I had some pretty big (for my sitch, anyway) steps forward recently. Maybe my best move is to keep on keeping on-- being the best me I can be, complicating his narrative. I will feel these feelings of frustration, and anger, and sadness, especially around holidays. Maybe forever. I have to just let myself feel that, and remember that not getting enough sleep is certainly making it harder for me to deal with my emotions calmly. I can get through this.