Starsky... go for what? I am not sure I understand what you are saying...

The dynamics between us needed to change.. this is the time to allow for it to happen. I am waiting to see if it will happen. The old MM would pressure & control it to happen... I am no longer going to control it or beg for it. I am watching to see what HE wants this time. 20 years of chasing was what lead him to be able to dangle it. I am no longer in pursuit. I will see what will be offered. As mentioned, if not offered... Im done.

I didn't say that I was happy with the arrangement. Its still very upsetting at times. I am not pretending ... it is NOT enough for me. However, I need to know that I tried my very best, thus the time limit on what/how my councellor suggests.

Last edited by makingmagic; 10/01/14 01:27 AM.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)