Mindsin - pt. 4 (the countdown begins)

[MrBond]

"My W does. Loyalty is a big thing. If I can show her that I am at least making an attempt to be loyal to her in this situation, I think it will only be to my benefit."

Again, WHO CARES? More specifically, who cares what your W thinks. She wants you to support her and show loyalty for her A. That's not validation and makes you seem like a cuckold.

"Maybe you can point out specific things I've wrote that would give you this impression, because I don't see it."

I'm not going to go through all of the posts. But I and others have pointed it out to you before. You can look for them so we're not repeating ourselves.

"No. I have my limits and my boundaries. She knows what they are. "
You may think she knows what they are, but she seems to always break them. Like you tell her how you won't support her A, etc. but you watch the kids for her so she can carry it on. Sounds like support to me.

"Ok, now you're mind reading. My initial "peek" was to see if she was ok,"

MMM no I'm not. If your "peek" was just to see if she was ok, you wouldn't even have posted it. The fact that you did shows that you know something's wrong about it. PLUS you mentioned so many times about how the A was eating you up, etc., that this is a natural reaction for anyone.

Quite honestly, it seems like you're in alot of denial. I believe much of it is from your guilt of what you did in the past and it's put blinders on you.