New here, my fairytale gone wrong

[fthnluv]

Spoke to H today (very briefly, he actually only called to talk to the kids, the entire phone call was only 4 minutes) and he said he is going to call me tomorrow to go over some questions I had last week. I imagine it's about the date of separation that I want corrected and/or the IRS deal we had in progress.

I'm dreading the phone call, to be honest. I not only don't want to talk about the next steps needed towards our divorce but also I hate that I can no longer hear any care or concern for me in his voice.

I also think he may tell me he is backing out on coming home to be here for our D4's 5th birthday party. I realize that he's in a self centered mode, I just hate that it's possible that the kids will have to be hurt by his choices already. If he does come I will vow to be polite and friendly to him and to tell my family to do the same, as any uneasiness will cause him not to want to do these events together in the future (which I really want to try to do, for our children, and yes, even so I can see him if I'm being completely honest).

Wish me luck or pray for me if you can. I need to start my mirror work too...