uR, it is such a hard thing, this detaching. It helps to hear it's normal that I'm not there yet. Thank you. I do keep thinking others' stuff is my fault. It's one of the complaints H had that I own other peoples stuff. I gotta get this thing. Concept is there, but I don't live it yet.
T, thank you for reminding me. I've been told that before, the predator thing....I have a hard time recognizing it. I have been told I'm too trusting and optimistic, and I'm an easy target. But I didn't worry about that for a long time. Now I add the vulnerability factor and I may as well be wearing a flashing light with a sign.
GB, thanks for the laughs, and the reminders of their craziness. If I were to try to explain to anyone outside of this board, what happened to my H, it would result in the same "nodding, smiling" face people make when a child describes their imaginary friend. No one gets it. No one believes this is real. Man, oh man....it's very real.
So, our dance...we'll have a few texts here and there, but it's been much darker lately. Then typically, I get angry or sad and need to pull back, and I stop responding. Then he'll send something very strategic....like a medical update. He sure knows how to suck me in, dang it.
I believe he is going to need the D as another layer that has to be accomplished before he can look inward. I'm preparing myself as much as possible.
