Ok, I am going to just say this, cuz I know you know what I am about.
Two men spoke to you, found you engaging and attractive and decided to let you know and that is your fault? Nope, cant let you take that one, S.
You didnt do a thing wrong. You talked with some people. What they decided to think is on them.
I know you are sick of hearing this, but, you arent supposed to be at the detaching part yet at this early stage. Right now it is a concept that you practice each day..til it happens.
Even when knowing that he is in crisis, it still hurts to be rejected by the person you love. It just does. It stings for a good, long while. Until your mind allows you to really get that he is rejecting himself. Our self confidence takes a big hit during all of this. When we realize that we are the only one who can determine our worth, it becomes so clear. You are on your way.
This is a process. A tough,one. You will take two steps forward and one back at times. We all did. Trust me. As long as you get back on your path. That's the important part.
You have had a lot happen to you in a short amount of time. Your h goes nuts, you lose your job, sell your have and have to move. You were holding your breath for awhile. Now you are starting to feel it. Perfectly normal. Heck, if you didnt feel it, I'd be worried.
So, the GAL thing didnt work out, but, good for you for trying. You do need to be among people. That's really important. Keep thinking about it. You will figure it out. If its task stuff you need to do right now, so be it.
You backslid. It happens. Tomorrow is a new day. Shining, you will get through this. I promise you. I will be here to help you in any way I can.
