Hey my friend. I am sorry you had a bad day. They happen, right?
Let me just tell you that everyone on here has heard a variation of most of that stuff he wrote.
So, first things first...what can you put in place so that you dont reach out to him like that again? Can you call someone, write it down, whatever?
The next thing is this...you are still being so hard on yourself, sweetie.
The getting out thing...man, was that hard for me. Still is at times. Some people it is just natural for, others not so much. Doesnt make you less than..
Please do not allow a person in crisis and who is depressed, to assess your worth.
Remember your list...you are special, S. He is wrong. Plain and simple. Know how I know? Look at what he has done. Look at what he is writing. He is broken. Really and truly.
So, tomorrow is another day. Break the GAL into really small parts. Can you just go to a store and walk around and maybe smile at someone? Can you look into a class you may want to take?
Just gather info for now. You dont have to act on it if you arent ready.
