Quote: I just am starting to think of myself as better off without her. I am so confused.
This is precisely the reason why no major decisions should be taken one way or another at this time. If you think the pain is bad now, it will be much, much worse if you are not completely certain about a divorce when all is said and done.
You need to step back and talk to a professional about this. That is exactly what I did to prepare myself for the divorce. I did not initiate proceedings but I did not block them either. I protected myself legally and prepared myself mentally.
But "going through it" wasn't something I could accomplish by myself, even with the help of this board. I had to have one-on-one with a professional, which I still see now even though the divorce happened 7 months ago.
Get yourself a good counselor to get you through these times and do not rush into anything. If your wife complains, tough. Don't let her push you into something you are unsure about right now.
Get yourself on level ground first or else you will be a mess when you get the final decree. I got help and I'm not ashamed to say it. It saved my sanity.
