On Friday my youngest forgot something she needed before going to her moms for the weekend. My wife brought her back to get it. I stepped out to say hello and see how my middle daughter is doing. My wife seemed truly unhappy. I presented to her as upbeat. I talked only about the kids. I cannot worry about her being unhappy. She has to live with her decisions.
Saturdays are now becoming my day. With the visitation change I now have Saturdays to myself. I went to a show on the other side of the state and caught up with some people I have not seen in quite a while. I also met some new people. While going there I came upon a huge black bear running down the road. I have never seen one where I have lived for most of my life. This year I have seen two already.
On Sunday my oldest called from college. She was having a bad day and needed someone to talk to. We talked for about an hour. I am thrilled that my relationship with my oldest is getting better all the time. In the past couple weeks we have had some of the longest conversations that I can remember.
My middle daughter is a lot more like my wife than I thought. I have found that she shuts down when things get to tough to handle. Right now she has shut down and won't talk to anyone. Unfortunately she has chosen to hide out at my wifes place so I can't try except to text her that I am here for her.
I spent time with my youngest on Sunday as well. She is 15 now. I take her like I did with my other two out on dirt roads and back roads driving. It is a big confidence builder for her. It is also very important that I treat her as equally as I treated her sisters.
I also started taking steps to form my own business. I will continue to look and be open to getting a job. Even if I get a job I will continue with my own plans. I want to be self supportive and no longer rely on someone else deciding if they want to pay me or not. I have made hundreds of millions of dollars for others. I have multiple patents that I make zero from. Much like trying to save my marriage,I know this will be a marathon. I want to do this for myself now and not for others.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"
