Hey Matt. For some reason that maybe only you know or maybe you dont realize it, but, you dont acknowledge when I post to you. Now, I dont mind it. At all. I dont post to get a reaction. Just something I have noticed.
Anyway, I get that you are angry and upset with all that happened. Been freakin there, done that.
The thing of it is, that feeling that way doesnt change anything....except you. I know for me, that wasnt an option. This couldnt be at the expense of me.
The most important thing in being able to move forward is to accept what is. You dont have to like it. You could hate the heck out of it. But you do have to come to a place of acceptance. If you dont, it holds you back, keeps you stuck, and weighs you down.
The way to get there is to understand that her decisions are hers. It's to believe she is in crisis. It's to accept that these are the choices she is making now and they are out of your control.
That was so hard for me...the letting go of wanting something different. It takes real strength and courage. It takes faith.
I know this isnt how you wanted your life to go, but life rarely goes how we plan. You get what you get and you try to do the best with it. That's how life is most times.
The key to all of this is...are you going to waste this amazing opportunity of introspection ...holding onto things you cant change?
As I said, the letting go part is so hard. But man, it can set you free. I lost a lot, Matt, an awful lot. Some things I may never recover from.
But, I can only control what I can. I leave the rest.
