"It's clear that even though she's in an A, that all she wants from me is honesty and loyalty. And that's all I want to give back to her. "
You shouldn't when it comes to the A. Stop defending her actions. You can validate how and why she got to that point, but don't tell her she's correct in doing the A. AND stop treating the OMW as an enemy. She's a woman just as scared as you are (if not more) who is trying to save her family.
One thing I've always wondered in your posts is that all you talk about is your W. Where are your kids? How are you interacting with them? How are they feeling about all of this?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.