still waiting

[Ahoy]

Had a good day with D14. While we were out H texted to say he was coming by the house to get stuff from the garage. I told him what we were up to and mentioned that maybe we'd cross paths later, but we didn't because D and I ended up eating out. Probably for the best that I didn't invite him. As usual, it sounds like he was busy with work stuff (which involves the studio in the garage), and probably would have declined. I know this is mind reading on my part, but I'm trying to justify why it was probably good that I didn't invite him. And yes, bdub, if he had said yes, then it probably wouldn't have been what I wanted -- a loving family all together like old times. Those times are gone. Instead it would have been the three of us, with me pining for the old times, and him happy to have extra time with D and a chance to be "friendly" with me, but that's all.

I think maybe keeping distance is the way to go, unless he initiates. It gives me more peace, and that's worth a lot these days.