If I'm updating too much let me know. I find that putting my thoughts here is helping me to make sense of them.
W went away for the weekend to MILs with kids. I went and saw friends which was good but I couldn't stop thinking about my W and how sad I was because of what is happening and just still shocked at how much she has changed.
Anyway I got home a decided that to be the new me (which is a lot like the me she originally fell in love with) I would start doing things like the laundry, tidying old junk and some proper cooking. All good and I felt quite happy and relaxed.
W gets home and immediately blanks me. She then has a go because I started to help her unload her car and had changed all the sheets on the beds. I still can't deal with the level of hostility and its really difficult to try and do more positive things when she can't even look at me.
I don't know why I'm deluding myself that its not too late other than my desperate hope that its not. Still I did really like the fact that the first steps to new me are actually about finding the old me - the one from before 3 years of stress, rejection and tiredness.
Both mid 30s, 2 young kids BD 7sep14 XW moved on long ago, now living with OM1 D paperwork in progress
