Feeling that great despair is completely normal. I did, too. And I wondered if I was normal.
Everyone here gets it, they really do. You have the best friends and support system in the world on this board.
You're going to feel those days, but they become less intense and more spread out over time.
You are early in finding out about ow. Please trust me. We all start off comparing and wondering. He didn't choose her as an upgrade. She's a bandaid.
They always always always affair down. She is not worth the time you spend on her. The only thing she has is a lie of who he really is. That can't last. And it won't. His mind is bouncing all over, trying to stop his pain. He doesn't know how.
This isn't just to make you feel better, this is the way it works. Ow is not love. It will play out on it's own, and die a natural death. Tempting as it is, do not focus on her, or even talk about her outside of here. They are NOT having the time of their lives, as we imagine. I know this.
So, off of that.... Your alone time is a blessing and a curse, yeah? As much as you don't want to, try to move forward a little bit. Minute by minute.
Try to force yourself to take the smallest step today to do something for you. Anything. Brush your hair. Brush your teeth. Don't beat yourself up about what you aren't able to do. This is hard. Just do what you can, and try to move a little.
I get the not watching tv and hearing songs that bring too much pain right now. That will get better in time.
I would go in my car, and park in an empty parking lot, just to let out the loudest scream-cry I could. I made myself hoarse....but I felt better. Cry it out. It does release the toxins. Then feel the feelings as they pass through you, and wash over.
I would go on walks, and set my pandora station to music H didn't listen to.... Then it didn't take me to sad places in my head.
You ARE normal. We've all had those days. Come here and vent all you want.
