I want to focus on the positives. Arrived at services and was greeted with a big smile by D and WAH said, 'You look nice.'
I stopped to say hello to another friend while D and H headed downstairs to family service. When I got there, D's seat was on the end of the aisle, then empty chair, then H. I paused, waiting for him to suggest some rearrangement of seating. He didn't, so I ended up sitting in the middle.
Service was great, DB-wise. D was engaged and charming (she was so cute and I was proud of the way she participated and behaved so well). H seemed relaxed, chatting with me, making jokes and conversation-- felt like my old H.
I complimented him on how nice D looked-- dressed so cute, hair in barrettes neatly-- he said, "one of the barrettes is already falling out." Asked D if mommy could fix it: "Mommy does it better than me". I said, "I dunno. Looks like you did a pretty good job!"
Last positive thing-- I touched him on his arm, twice. He didn't recoil.
Focusing on those positives. It brought me great joy to spend that time with my D. I felt like I totally accomplished my goal, and enjoyed myself and the rest of the day, too.
Met up with a good friend last night who met me and H after we were already married. I mentioned, "I wonder sometimes if he's going through some sort of MLC." She smiled and said, "Uh, obviously!"
