[gan]

Thanks for stopping by, NewLeaf. No major news over here. H is all set to come over tomorrow to pick up his things. I've been a bit sad and anxious in anticipation of his visit. We're at 4 months this Friday (wow…where did that time go?) I really have no idea what he's thinking at this point - if there's an OW, if he's in IC, if he thinks we are done… It's tempting to ask questions but I know I shouldn't. I pulled out DR again and re-read Ch 6&7 to remind myself. It's just so hard to know if there is any progress or if what I am doing is working given that there is so little interaction.

Last time I saw him - a month or so ago - he told me it made him sad to see me (despite or perhaps because of the PMA I was showcasing). On the positive side I was glad to see that he'd moved beyond the angry stage, but based on what I know of my H I could see him avoiding me just so that he can avoid those feelings. Sure enough he's turned down two invitations for a casual drink subsequent to that last meet up (we also had things to discuss…which he emailed about). So I get the message, he doesn't want to spend any time with me at the current time. Backing off…trying to focus on me.