Thank you Mrbond, Sandi, and 25years. Yes thank you dbud I know your heart was is the right place.

I was very anger at that moment it hurt very very much. But I looked at my kids and they where fine no bruises and no marks. Yes probably hurt on the inside. But I know that I did not inflict that hurt on to them. But I can be the one to be there for them.

Anger is my enemy! Just like them meeting him, I can not control them. Just like this him driving my son to a school function. If it was ok with my twelve year old boy(almost 13). Then it should be ok with me. He was with his mom and it's her job to protect them when they spend time with her. Even though she is deep in the fog. I don't think she would let anything happen to our kids. If they came home to my house with one scratch. Then I can do something.

It's just tuff to deal with. Just have to think of OM as a fantasy like my db coach told me. Any women that tells her 9 year old daughter that she always doesn't come first. Is not in her right mind. I'll just give my kids extra hugs and hold them tighter tonight.

Thanks as always! Needed you all today thank you!


M36/W30
S13,D10,S6
Married 4.5 together 12
Bomb 1/14
EA/PA OM 1/14 still going
Served 2/14/14
Separated 3/14
D paused 6/14
6/15 divorced