At first, I was going back and forth deciding about the trip. After committing to do it, and then reading the support here....I'm even more certain it's the right thing to do.
"START SPREADIN' THE NEWWWWWWWWWS......."
Update from today: H would normally (preMLC) make a plan and follow through the next day, until it's done. I was afraid I would hear more about splitting things and D plans today. Nope. Not a word about it.
Soooooo.........I'm glad you all held me off from responding. Who knows what will happen, and if he'll file. I'm in a better place to accept whatever comes. Not completely ready....what with me being human and all... But better.
H and I started the day with word games, but no texting. Late this afternoon, he started texting.
He said he wanted me to come over tonight. Then he sent another text and said he can't.
I responded.
Me: No worries. Are u ok?
H: I'm ok.
Me: I'm glad your ok.
H: I am going to lay low and take care of me.
Me: good for you.
H: I will be cleaning instruments and posting on eBay, hang with dog and chill. I need that.
Me: Thank you for telling me. Have a good night.
Then this....
H: I'm ridiculously attracted to you.
Me: Thank you. I am he same. Very attracted to you, too.
Then nothing for a couple of hours. I had a weird feeling. I sent one more, I probably shouldn't have.
Me: I won't bother you tonight. I heard you, and I'll give you your space. If you ever get dark thoughts again, I can be a friend, no pressure.
H: thank you.
So, I'm home. Fun Festive Friday night of laundry and cleaning my closet..... I may even get wine. I'm feeling better.
. 
But better. 
