Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

Boy this week has taken alot out of me, not sure why, just really been a struggle for me. Venting here helps and time to journal:

Things to be proud of myself for and happy about:

1. My and my S's health is good
2. Me and S do alot of laughing together
3. I signed up for weekly yoga again. It helps so much!
4. I have been making an effort to having something planned every weekend in October
5. When H is out and about, I am switching the focus from where/what/who he is doing and focusing on how much I enjoy the peace and quiet at home!
6. I no longer have a hard time eating, my appetite has been good, even when H is out and about
7. I also notice when H is out and about, I used to have a hard time staying focused, but am able to actually enjoy myself
8. I still have a hard time getting a good night sleep, but I am getting better at talking myself down. The yoga helps in creating a "calm mind"
9. Learning to talk less with people about sitch as they don't understand and it only makes me feel worse and sets me off track
10.Taking breaks from reading self help books and enjoying good old fashioned romance novels. Helps me to forget for a little bit!
11. Enjoying being in my home with all of us intact. Me, H, S, dog and hamster too!
12. Very much looking forward to the next few months with fall and the holidays being my favorite time of year.
13. Getting back on track with home projects
14. Having handyman come out next week and take care of a few repairs needed that have been hanging around unfinished for over a year
15. Proud of changes I have made in me and liking myself more, whether H believes changes are genuine or not
16. Happy to be cooking healthy dinners for all of us again, even though I would rather throw it at H many times
17. Letting go of anger at H for being in spare room and enjoying have the bed all to myself.
18. Looking into getting myself a new truck without H help
19. Taking walks on my lunchbreak
20. Fully enjoying the close relationship I have with my S, while he is still young and before he turns into a teenager!
21. Continuing to be successful and impress my boss at my job
22. looking into looking even better than I do, for ME!

That's a good start for now. I will have to come back to this when I am feeling down. Even with the craziness going on, I really have so much to be thankful for. We forget sometimes