Thanks for checking in on me- I decided to take a self imposed break from the boards as I was becoming pretty obsessed with waiting for responses to my thread as well as reading every story on here. I found it was becoming difficult to fully detach when I was constantly on here.

So to pick up from where I left off, W and I exchanged several texts after my email that day, including 1 where she said she was 'done.' We went back in forth in a conversation that would have earned me some major 2x4's, but the end result was that she was unsure if she was going to her MC session. I left it at that and a few days later left for a friend's wedding 8 hrs away.

Had a great time catching up with friends and ended up staying a couple days with my brother and his girlfriend, who live near the wedding site. It was so nice to get my mind off things and just enjoy time away.

W stayed at the house with the kids while I was gone for the first time since March. The MC emailed me that W had cancelled her appt, but then rescheduled (she went earlier this week). Our next session is this upcoming Monday, where we'll read our homework questions to each other (What are the problems? How have each of you contributed? ...etc)

I hadn't talked to W since our text exchange. She had sent me a text the morning I left for the wedding asking if I wanted to take her car and that she'd bring it over, but I didn't respond as I was heading out the door. We text once I got back and I asked if she wanted to do anything for her bday (this Sunday). She responded that she didn't want to do anything as she was feeling overwhelmed and was even thinking of cancelling her plans with her friends. I got the old 'life svcks' text and how much she misses the kids. I'm guessing her MC session combined with 'playing house' while I was gone is probably hitting her hard now that she's back to reality.

After W dropped the kids off last night, she text me asking what we should do for her bday. She wanted to do something with the kids, but wondered if I wanted to do something just the two of us later in the night- so that's the plan for now. With MC scheduled for Mon, I'm not pushing the no-contact letter/transparency deal until then. I made it clear in my MC session that that would be required, so MC knows where I stand and possibly already addressed it in W's session.