To DB or not to DB, is it really a question?

[Shakspr]

labug. I've reread that list more times than I can count. I am attempting dignity and grace. But an attempt at humor was better than crying my way through a freaking apartment selection conversation. Those items are true. But they are not the whole story - I have stopped doing all those things publicly. Each (non-forum) person who knows what's up in my life knows I contributed mightily to the problem. Heck, one of the men at work DB'd successfully over the last year with a WAW who had two affairs - he opened up to me after I told him what I was going through. He knew the lingo and everything. He's still piecing it together, scared, but hopeful.

So, while my airing of dirty laundry here last week might not have been in the spirit of foregoing items 2 & 3 on this list, I certainly haven't been speaking of those things publicly to anyone who will ever know about them and associate them with me.

And, frankly, I probably won't let her go mentally until the conversation with our children, happening most likely next weekend. I am, however, behaving with dignity in our recent face to face and text convos. I am PMA'g white-knuckle style sometimes, but I'm doing it.

Rereading that, it seems wise that I figure out how to truly let go before the talk with our children - especially if I am to be the lighthouse during and after. There's something worth thinking about.