Brutal. I thought the D would be the hard part. My night to visit with kids, STBX comes home drunk and felt like talking. I didn't really want to but she started talking about not doing so well, and at this point when she says that I get concerned about her safety.
She went on about her normal talking points, how she was trapped, dependent on me, needs the divorce done, was afraid she would lose the kids and that if she did she really would kill herself and make sure the job got done, told me that she was lonely because she stopped talking to OM (again), and many more points about how I destroyed her in the M.
I asked her if she was thinking about hurting herself. She said no. I told her to let me know if that ever changed. The. I validated a few things and headed out.
I have my children all weekend so I know they'll be safe with me. I talk to DB coach Monday. What a tough spot. On the one hand if I get too protective of the children And take bold action I might end up with a dead ex-wife or a hostile custody battle. But if I'm too passive I could put their emotional well being at risk. This is more than I bargained for. I just wanted to fight for my M and my own healing, this is insanity. And I have to constantly reevaluate each week to make sure I'm doing this right based on how I feel she's doing.
Anyway, I'll get professional guidance, execute, and know that whatever comes it isn't from me being complacent. I'll do my best and live with the consequences.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
