Hi daring! I'm sorry you are having a tough time as of late. Yes, it's ok to feel angry at H and your sitch. Who wouldn't?
One thing I'm hearing, is that being the one making all the money is causing resentment in you. It's understandable that you might feel this way, but not helpful in a marriage, you know? Think "Team". I know you feel he might not deserve that right now, and I would kind of agree, but the hope is that someday he will, and will be grateful to you for giving him time to figure his stuff out.
"H stopped and said I'm sorry, I didn't mean to attack you."
See... stuff like this is uncommon from most MLC spouses around here. Focus on the positives, daring. The Big Picture. You knew this would take time, right?
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
