As usual, whenever I pop by so much has happened! I noted that one of my replies to you disappeared & I was unable to post at the time. Apparently, there were some technical problems not too long ago as some members wrote about.
As a newbie, I am not in a postion to give you sound advice - I can only offer support . However, I am happy to read that you are moving on with what you can for yourself and Ds. This has been such a long haul - the duration of your M, the issues (W depression & MLC), trying with Ds 'within the MLC dynamic' of which you are part (with no experience like the rest of us!!! ). All this as well as recent financial woes to add to the sitch. There has been frustration & anger as it is all so hurtful. It has been too long for you.
We all come from diverse backgrounds and experiences. Different families and impressions along the way - good, bad, 'eventful' ... traumatic ... all shaping us re: socialization (many events are coming back to me during this experience - & I will admit, I don't feel as though I have the confidence to deal w, but MUST try ). This level of diversity translates vastly different for each & everyone of us. Find your translation. You know yourself better than anyone - HOW YOU FEEL, who you are - make this work for you. Many replies/posts offer direction and advice. Pull from it what you can for YOU, apply to your unique 'profile' and then 'begin' ...
I will be thinking of you and you set off on this new part of your life after all you have been through. The uncertainty of this new life - one not anticipated or planned for, but one handed to you, yet another (!!) LBS, through fate & one that must be taken. It's a hell of a thing!
I am attending a nice event this weekend, my $$ is steadily declining. This is depressing at times. I hope that something works out for me soon/$ but I am going anyway!! I intend to have a GOOD time . I intend to input as much as possible until I FORGET much of what I recall too much. There has been too much 'output' with the stress of this experience. I need to 'put back into myself' - and so do YOU. Plan a nice Holiday Season w/your Ds - but 'protect yourself', think that anything can happen. Don't let W surprise you, insulate yourself moving forward by planning carefully. Above all, think about how beautiful your Ds are as you look to your future with them.
I look forward to reading your vents, 'repeated' or not, as it is my understanding that we can journal our thoughts anyway.
Take care ((( Matt ))) pb
ps wow! a few replies turned up since I started this! (hope it makes sense) anyway, point it, we care 'far ya!!'
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pbetra ---- M: 15 yrs (in 2014) BD: 6/03/2014 Infidelity ('known' from July 2014) Denied PA Feb 2015 2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact. Back briefly 2017 (after family death) Separated 2017
. However, I am happy to read that you are moving on 
). All this as well as recent financial woes to add to the sitch. There has been frustration & anger as it is all so hurtful. It has been too long for you. 
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. I intend to 
as it is my understanding that we can journal our thoughts anyway.