Feeling stronger than ever

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H texted he is heading to concert which is a good 1 1/2 from our home. Says coworker he is going with lives near concert so he may just sleep at his place to save an hour of sleep but will be home in morning before S and I leave. Ok I know it's mean that I say my H is not the brightest light bulb in the pack but how is he saving an hour if he has to leave super early to be home in time for work?? It's either driving it tonight or in the morning!! Lol. I think of one of my favorite shows "Everybody loves Raymond" when the wife says "idiot". I say that to myself all the time!!

But I am good. I just replied "have fun!" I swear in all honesty, home with him gone these days is much calmer and happier for me, so I am fully enjoying the time with S. I am starting to realize that and looking at it as time for peace and quiet!

Also realizing that my fear and anger about wondering if he is even telling the truth. I am realizing it doesn't come from jealousy. He is no prize these days, I had the best part of him years ago and mostly have that in my S. But I feel my feelings come from just the disappointment of possibly being lied to. I hate liars. But it's a new perspective for me. Overall I don't think my H is the cheating type, but he also isn't my H anymore.