I just remembered H said he went to the doctor today. He hasn't been since July.

Maybe something happened there idk. This just came out of nowhere today, in the middle of just normal back and forth texting.

It doesn't matter. None of this matters. It's all so stupid. I just have to get him out of my head. But every fiber of my being wants to run into his arms like an idiot.

Now my kids know I'm crying. Awesome.