Matt, I think you have a lot of things to look at. I hope and pray that you do.
Consider this..... Change is not easy, it takes a lot of work. The hardest thing to do is to be really honest with yourself.
I would also just say that sometimes we cannot see things in ourselves that others can. Imo, as long as you are doing your best and NOT shying away from the real tough stuff... that is all you can ask.
I do not post often...but I still read and watch quite a few of you. That said... read what others are posting in an objective manner. You may find that people are just trying to help (based on how they see things)...and sometimes we can misintrept things.
One other thought ...... in my experience and ftr, I am not a therapist, if you are always defending something - then you do not believe it.
God Bless
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
