still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

She hasn't shut me down this way since asking me to open up, but we haven't had the opportunity to talk much either. I hope it will go differently and she can actually hear me being open and honest.

And of course I would want the same from her, but I know I can't expect it.

She is avoiding conversations again (except about her work). I try to let her take the lead initiating conversations, which means it almost never happens (except about her work). It's confusing when she says wants to talk about things and then later in the day she doesn't even acknowledge it - the moment just goes away.

Though now I do feel like I've been given an invitation. I just don't want to get too heavy too fast and scare her off. I wouldn't mind the friction a good discovery conversation (current status of each of us) may bring, but I want it to be productive.

Or I ignore the whole thing and back to patience.

I feel good about being able to see all of this now and not just react to emotions.

Thanks!