I took my D to a children's service by myself this morning. I am meeting her and WAH tomorrow morning...
Elsa-- this is something I've felt in him, though he would vehemently deny it, and would state that the fact that I feel this way about him is one of the reasons he felt so unloved. So, I have to push myself to see the role I played as well. (We certainly don't speak each other's love languages). I could certainly offer a few examples that would make your eyes go wide... though I'm sure he could, too (of how I didn't consider his feelings, or didn't notice that he, in fact, was considering mine on many other occasions). And we can both be right about that.
And at the same time, he's told me that he one of the things he is working on, in IC, and at work (based on feedback from supervisors) is listening more closely and empathizing. So.... there ya go.
And as for this year... in some ways it is starting off really well, actually. I had a really lovely, pretty stress-free holiday dinner with my immediate family and D. That's almost unheard of, and I don't think they even realize how much I will treasure that memory.
My work year has started off quite smoothly--I am enjoying my students, and I think they like my class, too. I am starting this year feeling great about who I am as a person, what I have accomplished, particularly in the last 11 months, and how I now see the world and myself with new, more positive eyes.
It certainly hasn't been easy and there is much that I wish was different, but all things considered, I have many, many blessings for which I am so thankful.
