"I feel like I wasn't more social because I think I somehow lost myself in my marriage."
This is a cop out excuse that many use. M doesn't make someone lose their sense of self. It's a natural evolution to life. You adapt and adjust. There is joy to be found in every stage of life but built on the foundation of your values and principles.
If people continued to act in a M the same way like they were single, there would be alot more divorces.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.