Thank you, uR. The wave of guilt, at least the most recent wave....has past. This cycling of grief and loss...I'm sure I'm kinda normal there.
I really don't have much in my life for "things". I appreciate having them, but I know I don't need them. If I ever did think so, I certainly got over the losing of things with my xh. I walked away from everything just to be out and have my 4 kids. We had our clothes, and their beds.
Amazing how quickly our priorities can change in an instant.
So, I feel like I'm complaining a bit about the changes we've had. I feel I'm having a pity party off and on. And I am. (Cue that lasso, again.)
But, I realize how much we DO have. I really have nothing to complain about. I am grateful for the precious things money can't buy.
I asked myself, if 7 years ago, someone told me that my kids and I could go on an adventure, feel great love, have a wonderful, caring extended family, and all the experiences that we've had in the past 6-7 years.....but then it would be gone. Would I still do it.
Yep.
Those years had a lot of wonderful stuff I wouldn't trade for the world. What a gift. No matter how long or short our M last. It's all a gift.
Until the next wave hits me....I'm enjoying this one.
