Meanwhile in the reality of the Big D land, I'm gathering all the financial docs the court will need to divide my income and our assets. What a drag that is.
I know... seeing your entire R converted into numbers on a spreadsheet in order to be hacked apart... it is awful.
Hang in there. On one hand, there is always a chance of reconciliation. Always. You have a history, you are tied together with your kids. You'll have many opportunities to be seen by her as you live a good life without her and she'll be rethinking herself and her poor decisions.
On the other hand, you've got to move forward as if you are already D, as if this is your life and you've accepted it. It was very hard for me to reach this point but when I could do it, everything shifted for me in a positive way. By accepting the end of my M, I felt like I had gained control in my life.
That's not to say I still don't mess up, forget that I've accepted it, fall down, cry, or feel bad. I still do. It's the consistent, forward progress you make that is important.
M:54, H:55 T:33, M:27 12/13 BD: EA 01/14 BD: PA, H leaves 03/14 H & OW break up 05/14 H says he will file for D 08/14 H initiates D 09/14 H wants to R 12/14 Still bungling our way through R
