Your situation isn't hopeless. Detach, let go and live your life for you and your child. BTW, no one has said that you have to be the happy little wife 24/7. You are entitled to have down days too.

It takes some a long time to get to the point of letting go and not worrying about what the mlcer is doing. Living w/one is difficult because they are there most of the time and acting out.

Try to look at him as a roommate and nothing more. He's just someone who graces your presence periodically and then disappears. Stay busy doing things that you enjoy or want to learn. I'm sure you and your son can come up w/some fun things to do when you have the time.

You may want to read the threads of reachingHigher and Raine. They both had to learn to let go and learn to live their lives even after their spouses were back under the same roof. It's hard, I kid you not, but you can do this.

Just be yourself and accept him for who he is today. Don't try to look to far into the future because things can change quickly. Take it one day at a time, one hour at a time.

So, what's on your agenda for today?

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.