MLC? Let it Be.

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So, it's been a while, and I thought I would journal about what's been happening, which is, NOTHING. <heavy sigh> It's been almost a month now since I signed the mediation agreement and told H I wouldn't stand in the way of his happiness, and if a D is what would make him happy, I won't stand in his way. As far as I can tell, he has not turned it in (no withdrawal for the retainer), nor has he mentioned anything more about D. He was also supposed to put our vacation home up for sale. Said he had the paperwork for that for me to sign 10 days ago, but I haven't seen that yet either. (He was at the house here today, while I was out, but did not drop it off.)

I have not seen him in about 10 days now, so I have not mentioned the counselor someone had recommended.

I get occasional e-mails from him, very formal and businesslike, and the last two informed me (1) he purchased lawn/fall cleanup supplies for the yard, and (2) his best friend's father's health is failing. That's it. There are no 'feeling' words attached to this 2nd one, only facts. I don't quite know what to do with it, how to respond. Have to mull that one over.

Anyway, I guess I am still standing, albeit somewhat reluctantly some days. But I will say this: absolutely NOTHING he does or says surprises me anymore. And, some days I feel like an EXPERT on detaching, and other days, not so much. Today's a pretty 'expert' day. So that's good. I have more of those now than the bad ones. A friend told me, after hearing me talk about this sitch, that she thinks he's going to reconsider and come home someday, but that she was afraid that, by then, I won't want him back anymore. To borrow a line from our friend Mighty, 'things that make you go hmmmmmm....'

Got a full weekend planned. Gearing up for some college football, dinner out with friends, and a surprise party for my 70-year-old aunt! Looking forward to it. Lovely start to the fall we're having - is it 'Indian Summer' already??? Cider and donuts are calling me.