To Pursue or Not

[Arcola]

So an update since I havent posted in a while. Yesterday, I was browsing through W's emails and saw she had sent her mom an email stating the following in there order of progression

-she first saw OM as a friend
-now she wants to be S/D from me
-now she wants to be with OM because she is ready for a man to treat her how she should be treated

Lastly, in an email she sent to me about the foster care situation and whatll need to happen so we can adopt, she also sent this email to OM. Contents of this email pretty much stated we must remain legally separated in order to adopt the kids as mom/dad. Also, since her house will be the licensed house visits to mine will have to be approved. So her follow on response while sending this to OM was she hates she'll have to split her time between two places and it wont be easy. OM replies, "We'll figure something out once we get into a routine."

I was heart broken. I never brought it up to her, but that night we did some talking and without her mentioning OM, she said she wanted a divorce. She also said things weren't getting better between us. My unspoken response, "no s!!!"
She wants us to talk about the specifics of the D,S,kids whatever is in topic for her/us moving on and I guess still be some kind of friends.

I've tried being the friend, but it just doesnt feel right. I feel she is so far gone, based on the email and us only talking about the day to day of the kids and a rental house we are landlords over. We dont even go anywhere together anymore even if it is with the kids. Last weekend she took all the kids and went with OM and spent the day in a neighboring city. This weekend unless she says she wants to come, I'll be taking 4 or 5 kids all by myself to this carnival that is in town.

Running out of time but will add more later. Bottom line, I'm severely hurt and this [censored]. I dont even know if its worth it anymore.