still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

Not much happened last night. No walk. Not much talk. Not a surprise. Good thing I try not to have expectations.

She did ask me to open up and communicate again.

I have been just neighborly lately and not really sharing anything personal with her and she doesn't with me - she hasn't wanted to hear anything personal lately - I thought.

I did say that she does not have to be afraid to be open and honest with me. We need that to have a starting point. It is what I want and I am not afraid of that.

I didn't think that was pressuring her too much. Just asking for the honesty that we need to make decisions.

There has been no communication since. All of this really makes me feel like this is exactly the way she wants me; not really a husband, more of a room mate / father.