Caliguy: I am committed to making a better me. I still want it to be ME. I think if I just added "Active listener" with an ounce of "understanding/caring" I might be 20% of the way there. Thank you for the 2x4. She is the beauty. She is the prize. But I have to take the long way home, while understanding that it's the journey, not the destination, that I need. (FYI, no surprise to anyone who has followed me a bit, Type A military men aren't naturally patient. Dangit.)
It will always be you ... who else could it be?? I too am a type A and patience has not ever been a part of me, and its one of the big 180's I have constantly had to wrestle. WAW is also a type A ... never a dull moment. Thing with patience, and my struggle with it ... the "Act as if" helps. When I find myself wanting to press, like now, things have been going well, no fights, we get along .. just no fireworks of R talk at the moment, I find myself wanting to push ... this spooks em off ... FAST. So ... I "act as if" we are divorced, or maybe just starting to hang out and get to know each other ... detaching a bit. My GAL activities are not as strong as others, I do find myself running out of time. Work has been crazy so its helped me stay away from her, but not in a way I have found personal pleasure, something after this audit I intend on doing.
Anyways .. I get your sitch, patience is always tough, and I will be honest .. its not going to get any easier in that dept till you look inward, be the light house and allow her to run off a bit and wait till she starts coming back towards you of her own free will, not because you manipulated it.
