Update after several months of absence

[trc2009]

That could very well be the case AWAW. It's so hard to say with her.

A lot of it goes back to the fact that she's having this early mid-life crisis (she even admitted that to a certain extent earlier this year). She loves having this type of freedom to do whatever she wants on days she doesn't have our kids. To be honest, it's kind of nice for me as well because I now have time to do things that I didn't have time to do before.

And for her, one of those things is dating/talking/seeing whoever she damn well pleases. She met me when she just turned 21. Had our son when she was 22. She made the comment a few times earlier this year when we first started having problems that she may have been too young to get married. Honestly, if that's the way she feels, I honestly can't blame her. Some of the best times of my life were in my early-20's and she didn't get to experience that. I'm 6 years older than her and I was very much okay with starting a family when I met her. I was ready for that type of commitment.

Even if I'm not her Plan B, she's at the very least doing what she's doing so she can weigh/judge what she really wants for the long term. And if that's the case, do I really want to be married to someone who needs to have a hissy fit of epic proportions like this in order to determine if she still wants to be married? Unstable/Uncertain/Conflicted are all words I'd use to describe her.