Not much progress

[dawgy]

So , we ve been sleeping separate for 3 weeks now . Its very tough on me . She s still with us but only because she doesnt want the secret out , so it seems . Shes very cold to me but every once in a while she lets her guard down and I see my girl . It hurts so much to see her then she vanishes back to the alien ive come to know .
I believe shes still seeing OM but im not positive . If I were a betting man I would bet my life on it , I just have that feeling . I want to destroy this man but it doesnt seem possible without making my sitch much worse .Although I seem to be at a breaking point where I feel Im willing to let go of her and get my revenge . I know revenge is not supposed to help but i feel a great desire to get it .

I see no progress and my sitch is 10 months old . Ive known for 7 months . If someone had told me 7 months ago id be in this situation , I would have laughed .DBing is hard , very hard but I keep telling myself D is much harder . I dont know . D seems inevitable when i start analyzing . Maybe I just need to detach even more , i dont know , Im just beside myself today Dawgy