So it appears that the Mediation went well. I reiterated that I am not a monster interested in control. I have no interest in destroying her, and I have no interest in controlling her or manipulating her. I think my W actually listened. She unblocked me and we had some very simple exchangers regarding the kids. It's highly tenuous, but I would say it's definitely positive.
Regardless of what happens, I need to maintain civility and co parent and I really want to demonstrate to my kids a strong secure role model.
Shockingly my W even asked me to have the kids call her. I facilitated a conversation gladly, and bit my tongue when she suggested it's much harder for her to do night time, which is why I shouldn't call at night. She did tell me a good time to call and let me call and speak with the kids, which was great!
I've really realized that my W is bent in getting appreciation for all the things she feels were under appreciated in our M. Both of us feel unappreciated, and I have realized that I cannot expect to ever get any appreciation from my W with respect to my contributions to our M, household and they kids. My W seems hung up on the idea that I don't listen to her. Which then proves to her that she is doing the right thing....
Anyways, I've really I realized there is no convincing from me. I'm going to go about leading my life without her in it, and hope for the best for myself and my kids. She is the one that gets to chose the pathways she takes....and where it leads.
