BD and 6 months later PA confirmed (2)

[Bunches]

Thanks GB! Honestly, I am frustrated pretty regularly. I avoid R talk or pursuing W but its tough to feel like there is any progress most days. There are a few other things that are adding to the plate that I can't stop thinking about the few occasions that my sitch is not on my mind. My job will be closed out in the new year. I've been with this company 7 years but they don't need me any longer. I have an offer for a great sounding job in NC, 6 hours away from here, and it sounds like I'll have to decide what to do in the next month or two. Haven't talked to W about it yet but don't think that's a good move until the offer is finalized and I have solid information to present.

Matter of fact, I have been having a hard time with how to present that. So far I've been thinking I just sit down with her and present my situation with work and say we have to come to a consensus. I think it should be a family decision as our S lives with me and I would be moving him out of regular visit range.

Thank you for your feedback by the way. I've sometimes forget how much it can help to get re assurance from someone else sharing these painful experiences. Closing in on a year of this is starting to break my hope down. I have a hard time seeing light at the end of the tunnel....or even a tunnel sometimes.

Oh, and to answer your other question, I do want to re attract W. I guess to some degree I just don't know how. When we first met that spark just set things in the right direction and we never had to 'work' at dating or enjoying being around each other. It just kind of happened. From there everything moved so fast and I can't even say when everything got off track. Where to start...